Anyway the post is readable. It doesn’t have typo errors at least :cute: Haha!

[ michelle ] thanks for the tips jie, haha i’ve seen how u read this post :dead:

[ teddy ] yupyup thanks for your great advice and i think the most important of all is just to be yourself. I don’t find u weird when i talk to u over the msn, in fact i find u very funny!! good at making jokes and all :blush: anyways don’t worry, i’m all okay now and starting to go back like normal

[ su ning ] i’m just being concerned as a friend su ning

Anywya, I’ve read your post… well at least the post is readable. I got the exact same feeling in my life before as I read your post, it rings a bell in my mind. There was once I felt hated and being left alone. When I was young I thought the scariest thing is being left in the dark but now what really haunts me is people betraying you, stabbing you in the back, dropping the stone as you fall into a well (a chinese idiom…) and not helping you although you pleaded for their help.

Due to my weird character and personality I was being isolated from the majority of the students in my early secondary school years and I told myself - that’s okay since you’ll make new friends later. But this turned out to be the opposite of the truth behind the whole thing and I regretted for not doing anything that may help.

I was an incosiderate person, and I’ve hurt some people’s heart. They went around spreading the word, and the negative effects on my social network amplified. I was hated again. I was depressed. I felt suicidal. I felt that even if I died nobody would care and they will live on happily without me. That kind of feeling really hurts, and it tainted my soul.

I tried to change, to make everyone accpet me (and validate my existence)… but even if I changed to that personality they liked, they never ever treat me like others. I was like a subhuman in their eyes…

But after a long while thinking and finding my true self I found that I have nothing to loose since I’ve changed and I’ve apologised over what I’ve done, it’s their fault for not accepting me again. No hard feelings, but that’s the way I comfort myself.

I feel like typing a post now instead of a comment :yuck: gotta stop. Take care and see ya! I just want to let you know there are many people out there who feels just like you… don’t be afriad, don’t run away. Face it with courage, and one day everything will settle down.

See ya :blush:

[ su ning ] u malasified woman!! jadi fatter than u know lol n guess what?!?! i didnt get any fatter during the holidays!! :dead::dead: :dead:

[ matt ] alamak!!! u’re macam su ning ok!! wana try something longer???? go read experiment bla bla, can search la dalam search bar tuuu kan!! not read but see the pictures. CONFIRM satisfied till u can STOP eating ice-cream forever :yuck: