Sha Niu’s Story

Have you ever came across situations where all the personalities you claim to dislike appears to be in you? I know that I’ve being told as a spoilt brat by my sister and all sorts but I never did take it personally although sometimes I did think that it’s normal and all.

So we all had a mini argument yesterday and yes I know my mum is sick but I’m the type who wants to make things clear before it gets delayed or worst. I was quite upset when she told me herself that I’m the type of daughter who goes to her and speaks nicely when I want money to buy things but shout just to make myself clear. Okay I know whoever reads this might already judge me from that. Trust me, I hate these type of people if I see them in dramas and movies too. SO NOW MUM, I don’t need you to give me back those amount of money anymore. I hate being labelled as that ‘type’ of daughter cause I know I’m trying not to be one.

You know how I’m feeling right now? I feel like killing that part of myself. No, not being suicidal that killing myself type. It’s more towards like destroying that freak side of me. Yes that is it. But I can’t. I’m just so mad at myself. Not anyone else. But myself. Gosh I’m just going to shut myself away from any communication just for one day. I’m sorry ma if i ever make you feel that way. Guess I’m not as worthy as much as I think. What a total total disappointment.